I’m contemplative this morning. I guess the words of a friend have started the juices flowing. I’m thinking about emotions and change and fear and the future, not necessarily in that order. Lately I have been obsessing about my upcoming audition and other changes taking place in the coming weeks. I hate that I get like this when I’m stressed about something. It’s almost as if I get tunnel vision and I forget that anything or anyone exists outside the bubble of what’s going on with me.
Yesterday I was praying for the salvation of a co-worker and realized how long it’s been since I looked outside myself and thought of the needs, the much bigger needs, of those around me. I wish I was more calm and collected and didn’t get so nervous about new or different things. But is anyone really as placid and serene as they appear, or do we all wrestle with emotions that choke out everything else? I suspect that we’re all very much the same deep inside.
In spite of the seemingly depressing thoughts, I’m actually quite encouraged today. It feels good to sort of wake up on the inside. I’m reminded of the Lord’s great love for us, His kids, and of the beauty of life and all it holds. There’s so much more He has for us that we don’t see! So much more! I want my heart to come alive in the light of this truth! In His presence….so much more!
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Beautiful post today, sis! Didn't Amber's description of her Grandma remind you of someone else??? Dang. I've been learning lately from my friend Holly about how much we fear man and how much we shouldn't. As I wrote on Amber's blog, God didn't create us to cower in a corner in fear of man!! Alas, this is what we so often do. Remember when you go to audition that the Lord has given you incredible talent and a beautiful voice. Whatever happens with your audition (which I have no doubt will be fantastic), He is the only one you need to fear/revere and He's the one who planted His dreams in your heart in the first place. Luv ya, sis!
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