I found out yesterday that I was NOT accepted into the music program here at the university. I haven’t received the official letter yet, but I inquired by e-mail to a woman I know who works in the department. I think I read her e-mail half a dozen times just to make sure I wasn’t imagining it. I still can hardly believe it! I wasn’t at all concerned about getting into the music school! I was more concerned about the size of the scholarship they would give me!
I haven’t really reacted emotionally yet, which is surprising because I’ve been emotional lately anyway. More surprising is that I almost feel relieved by the news, which only serves to flabbergast me more! While I don’t understand why I wasn’t accepted, I do have a peace that the Lord has a purpose in it. Perhaps He closed the door because there’s another door for me to walk through!
Meanwhile, “the plan” if I can call it that, is to still begin classes this summer, but to focus on my general courses until I know more. I think the hardest part is not knowing….anything……..about what I’m supposed to do now. Then again, it kind of feels good not to have everything so planned out. I never really wanted just a normal life, but to do great things for the Lord. Somewhere along the way I think I lost sight of that. Maybe this is a chance to gain new insight into what He has in store. It’s kind of exciting and scary all at the same time.
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Oh Mollie! I'm not going to say I'm sorry because it's clear that you already know that God is perfectly in control of this situation, and He knows what's best. I will be praying for your peace and perseverance as you wait to find out His will for what's next. I, too, am excited to see what that is - He's going something amazing up His sleeve!
Yikes Mollie. That's interesting news. Welcome to the "uncertainty" club! It's scary yet kind of exciting at the same time.
What a blessing your testamony is. This is why I have always been drawn to you. It's your love for Him. I can't believe you didn't get in though! That makes it even more obvious it's from the Lord though, I suppose.
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